Ten of Swords, Tarot Apokalypsis

'Stepping out of character' (yesterday) takes it's toll on the mind (our programming)!

"here we find the breaking point of the mind"

Following our own inner knowing and 'taking risks' (most probably in a way that 'doesn't make sense' on top of it all) typically puts us in a painful place.
Self-doubt and 'disorder' inevitably creeps in when rationalisation and 'reasoning' have no way of 'bringing (immediate) clarity' to our situation.
(The mind have a tendency to crave constant clarity.)

The mind prefers instant gratification for any eventual 'risk taking', or else it quickly assumes that a '(fatal) mistake' has been made. When 'results' shine brightly with their absence our programming has a tendency to (immediately) assume we're 'on the wrong path', and obviously must have done something terribly wrong!

'Fixing it' is another/next immediate 'go to' for the mind.
Driven by the illusion that there is something to fix regarding the situation itself (what we've 'done') as it 'feels so bad'.
Wrong - it's the DISCOMFORT (of 'non-clarity' or 'not knowing') the mind is trying to 'fix'. By pushing for answers and/or results, or simply 'withdrawing' our action/words. Quickly jumping back into our old/usual character - the one familiar both to ourselves and others.
Then it (proudly or shamefully, depending on or configuration) says, 'Phew, disaster avoided'.

An opportunity to intervene and interrupt old programming is what it truly is! :)
To sit with the discomfort, to remain 'out of character', taking the risk to 'fuck it all up' ><)
We ARE on the RIGHT path!
It's NOT about the circumstances, others or results - it's about expanding ourselves, going beyond limiting beliefs. Trying on new 'clothes' (features).

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