Ten of Swords, Meraki Tarot

The irony, or the vivid and timely imagery Tarot can deliver!

Yesterday the message was:
"A heavy load is not a burden if we understand its value"
That was the day I had to put my first 'home grown' rooster to 'sleep'. I've always found it an awkward thing to be the one to decide that a life has come to its end. So, somewhat a 'heavy burden', made easier by the fact that I just have too many roosters, and they've begun to fight a little to hard a little too often with each other.
An uncomfortable truth and task, but with values - a more peaceful life for the ones left, and food on the table.

And today the card make one think of a butchered bird...!
It's actually just a shadow that is pierced though.
Interesting!

Of course the cards speak about more than my farm birds, but it's an intriguing place and metaphor to start the contemplation with!
What are we (or need) 'killing off' in ourselves? What shadow to release to make space for more peace?

It's a continuation of killing off old narratives that keeps us stuck in the (pain of the) past.
Keeps us stuck in a limited experience - a shadow life. In fear of actually living, because we're so god damn accustomed to surviving, and struggling.

Can we connect with these parts of ourselves? The part thinking we're not worth 'a better/happier life'. The part being terrified of - and who resists - a happy life? Revealed in 'peculiar symptoms' keeping us away from what we want for example - because something within us is actually afraid to get or have it.
Symptoms making us say 'if it were not for X I would/could...'

We THINK and maybe know we're 'worth' a happier life, and we're even presented with opportunities thereof - but something in our body fears it and puts up a wall (or 'sickness') between us and it.

Mercury retrograde - time to go inwards and contemplate our resistance to our potential and 'birth right'!

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