Nine of Pentacles, Âme Tarot

Oh ye with bad faith!

It might be that we feel a bit like a 'failure' now. We're not really feeling like the lady standing there accomplished and calmly satisfied and fulfilled.
Oh, will we ever feel that accomplished in our own skin?
Have that flowery garden, being the result of our own labor, diligence and patience?

Maybe we feel as if our dreams are dissolving, continuously moving further and further away.
There are days when we feel them, when they feel attainable, but ever so often they're dissolved - in or from our own doubts.

For some reason we've lost the capacity to dream, or maybe we never developed it in the first place?
Maybe we weren't taught to dream, and the importance of having dreams.
Maybe it even instilled in us a sense that WE aren't important.
So now we're automatically interpretating our environment in this way - unconsciously 'searching for proof' we're not worth it and how highly unlikely it is that things will turn out successfully. 

Or similarly, it might be expectations ruining it for us.
We have expectations for how things SHOULD or ought to develop? In a straight line, from A to B to C, feeling good all the way for it to be right. Discomfort and delays massively trigger our doubts, or again, is interpreted as proofs it ain't gonna happen.

But things might have to be or get ugly before it gets better or good?
There's something here that we just can't get around but have to go THROUGH.
It might even be that the going through part is the post important part - not the 'destination'.
But the destination/dream is vital to hold on to, not to loose momentum and direction in the 'through part'.

Jupiter is certainly exposing our deepest wounds now!
All is well.

Deck: #ÂmeTarot
Theme: "your dream will come true"