Four of Pent's + Temperance, Sirian Starseed + Crystal Visions

Like yesterday, with a twist!

Yesterday we contemplated losing something to the process of transformation (Death).
The bittersweet ending of a pattern, or a phase.
We received the advice to focus on the feelings, and not the narratives in our mind ABOUT it.
Narratives created out of fear of leaving the known, the safe.
This fearful part pays no attention to the fact that it is necessary rebirth that requires a falling off of that which has 'gone bad' (no longer of use to us - like old patterns, outgrown phases).
This fearful part can only feel the loss, and the uncertainty of surviving without it.

It's important to feel this loss and fear, without succumbing to either the feeling or the story.
And without overriding it with affirmations - "it will all be well", "it's all for the best" !! - as that clashes with the actual belief and experience of this part, and negates it. (that's how defenses are created in the first place)

Today I read,
"Do you fear losing what you have gained?" and "How are you trying to desperately control your environment?"

The same theme, but like it's another part in charge - another narrative taking over.
Yesterday the loss was in focus - today it's the achievement!

Yesterday there was the hint of The Victim - "oh, how will we survive without X?"
We were guided to have discipline and 'take control' and not succumb - The Emperor.
Enter: the other defense mechanism, Too Much Control ,:)

This part focuses our achievement - and wants to cling to that!
It wants to stop time and 'end on top'!
Both is Fear of Change talking.

The guidance is the same: be with it!
This too shall pass.

Maybe to be replaced with yet another defense strategy ,:)
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