Five of Cups + Nine of Cups, Glastonbury + Urban

Using sadness, loss and grief as a stepping stone and as an opportunity to heal our deepest wounds. 

We had loss yesterday too - P5. But then it was more a 'fact', a material thing so to speak. Now the feelings have caught up. Now a deeper sense of loss has crept in, or welled up. We feel disappointed, maybe 'let down' in some sense, whether we care to admit it or not - which we better do, so we can get to the root of the pain (which is NOT outside) :)

"these feelings can now give way to an urge to seek wholeness and healing from within yourself."

Once we've acknowledged that we are feeling a sense of loss or disappointment, and we've 'sat through the worst waves' (without succumbing to them - or thoughts about them) we can begin to 'raise above them'.
Yesterday we had the hedgehog up in the tree, today we se 'full cups up the hill'.
Up - a place where we get perspective on things.

Things, people, situations come and go.
Sadness and grief is perfectly healthy. 
Whether we LOSE the things coming and going is a matter of perspective though :)
The same with 'getting disappointed' or 'let down'.
In the eye of the beholder. Or in the automatic reaction from a dysregulated nervous system.
Healing from inside is a must if we want things to change.
And with awareness it will.

"A natural progression is about to take place."

Only through healing ourselves from within, through becoming fully aware of and embracing our Shadows and fears can we reach that "happiness that knows no fear, no doubt, no reservation."
Then there will be no such thing as disappointment, as there's then no part in us 'becoming disappointed' - triggered by others' behaviors. And if there is, we will be so comfortable with it only being a small part of us feeling it, so it will be second nature to us to let the emotions rise and fall without taking them on, or projecting them on to others. 
No need to shame, blame or shrink others, or ourselves.

Setting boundaries for ourselves - finding out the 'distance at which I can love both you and me at the same time'.
Which can and will change over time.
Learning to be our best selves no matter how others behave, speak and act.
Finding our #FractalLine 
And the hardest thing: #ReturningNonLoveWithLove  

Deck: #GlastonburyTarot
Theme: "take a look in the mirror"

Deck: #UrbanTarot
Theme: "coping with society - the behavior of others"