Not MY life, not even A life. This I (here called Auditess) doesn't perceive life as something you can really have or own.
"In fact, it is not your own life, and yet, paradoxically, you are more "you" than ever before"
* Richard Rohr, The Naked Now *
One are but an momentary "I", in one specific body, with an individual portion of the universal psyche. With one small portion being conscious, and one huge portion being unconscious. And as all are connected, and time is an illusion, I assume that there can be no My Life, My Past Life, My Next Life either - just experience of life. Here I present parts of "my" experience.
"Eternity isn't some later time. Eternity isn't even a long time. Eternity has nothing to do with time. Eternity is that dimension of here and now that all thinking in temporal terms cuts off.... the experience of eternity right here and now, in all things, whether thought of as good or as evil, is the function of life."
* Joseph Campbell *
Endless versions of momentary I:s. Some of them maybe with quite similar configuration and/or individual portions of the collective unconscious, and hence having shared properties, memories, and/or qualities?
Just like the millions and millions of snowflakes that come in to existence, fall and melt - never to appear in exact the same configuration again. Each flake have the same kind of existence (come to be, fall, melt), each is made of water, but each have its own specific configuration, and specific surroundings - right there and then. Just like every human being.
We physically consist of a body/appearance from a group called Homo Sapiens, with a 315,000, or so, year history written in the bones. Evolved through time. In the same manner we have a personal psyche - an infinitesimal portion of an universal psyche. Also in evolution - and most probably very, very, very much older than Homo Sapiens. I propose that the wide spread term "Mental Instability" (and such) is psyche in development, perceived as unstable because we don't see the cause! Things are, in my perception, far to often called called sick/wrong/broken. More often than not the right thing to call it is "lack of knowledge" (or lack of willing to know). Things not understood, or things not having "a rational meaning" are very often named very wrong and narrow by the general Homo Sapiens - as they are viewed from that very little portion of the Universe, with so little perspective.
I find that the general Homo Sapiens are incapable and/or unwilling to acknowledge and explore the unconscious and the true cause to everything that "happens" to "us" and "them".
Or, maybe - probably - just not ready?
The concept and experience of having an I/ego and consciousness is still young, fresh and exciting. It still mesmerises humans. With "Civilization" having the moderate age of ~5000 years, we humans are still in the toddler phase when it comes to "being an I".
The general human being prefers to focus on material things, and convince them self that they have control over their self - when we in fact have very limited control over our existence (with all the things going on inside our physical body to name an example).
Preferring to develop pills instead of knowledge.
What if what's seen in the microscope isn't the cause, but actually the consequence? The consequence of our ignorance, incompetence and/or unknowing. What if Nature isn't sick, broken or failing, what if Nature is trying to convey something? Trying to teach us something?
Trying to wake us up?
"So certain were you. Go back and closer you must look."
* Yoda *
With reference to the general imbalance in the world (of the Earth - which tends to be the place Homo Sapiens focus on, I believe they own and can control). I think Nature starts to be a bit impatient with us. It's time to take the next step in the awakening process - "or else".
Yes, we have become aware of an I. Yes we have been given some kind of free will.
Now it is time to take responsibility over it.
Nature can at any time stop a heart from beating. Nature can at any time make the unconscious take over ("make you go crazy") - "locally", or globally.
Nature doesn't Love. Nature doesn't hate.
Nature (universe, God, Tao - name it as you prefer) is just taking the most suitable action - with reference to a much, much, greater scheme of things - beyond our comprehension. Who are we to call things sick, wrong or broken?
"A challenge lifelong it is, not to bend fear into anger."
* Yoda *
Spots and dots in the universe, connected by an universal psyche. Just like space is filled with uncountable celestial bodies, all connected by and sharing a wast amount of space (which we (also) know very little about).
My mother tongue is not English, so texts may (and most certainly do) include several long-shots, oddities and/or pure linguistic mistakes. But what are a linguistic faux pas, or two, among us (all connected) friends?
"Happens to every guy sometimes this does"
* Yoda *
Life doesn't take a break because I go to sleep.
I have been given a dreaming unconscious,
just as I have been given a beating heart.
I don't do the dreaming,I don't do the beating.
They are both filled with life,
they both have a purpose.
They both work in mysterious ways.
For Nature to know - for Me to find out.
As long as my heart keeps beating.
Until the curtain to (my portion of) the play closes.
"Soon will I rest, yes, forever sleep. Earned it I have. Twilight is upon me, soon night must fall."
* Yoda *
Not by choice - by Nature, God, the Creator, or whatever you call that larger than life power that runs the show.
"Do you wish me a good morning, or mean that it is a good morning whether I want it or not; or that you feel good this morning; or that it is a morning to be good on?"
* Gandalf, The Hobbit *
I believe body, mind, a colourful personal psyche and a beating heart are given to us to live - be present - and to learn, change and evolve.
Not to use in a man made system (society), or solely for our own pleasures and desires (unless they happen coincide with needs).
I believe we are born with duties and obligations, not any particular rights.
Every day, new duties to fulfil, new lessons to be learned, changes to be made.
I have much to learn, and many changes to make.
"Once you stop learning, you start dying."
* Albert Einstein *
I think LOVE is the most miss-used word in the world, and I think it is to simplify things a great deal to name Love as the ultimate answer.
Nature doesn't love.
Nature is neutral.
Nature strives for balance (not necessarily equality).
"If you want to be a great leader,
you must learn to follow the Tao.
Stop trying to control.
Let go of fixed plans and concepts,
and the world will govern itself."
* Tao Te Ching * 道德經 *
- 11 -
4th century BC